Tag: drinking

Sunny Side Up: 8 Months Sobriety

sunnysideupI love nature! I grew up in New Hampshire, a mostly rural state with plenty of majestic woods, ponds, lakes, and the White Mountains.

Today I celebrate 8 months of sobriety!  It has been an interesting ride so far.  I became sober on May 12, the day I was put in jail.

Some would say that I am not undergoing the real “test” until I resume my “normal” life.  I would say that, although that may be somewhat true, I still choose everyday not to pick up.soberiety on justruminating men's blog

I have had certain events occur this week that have sorely challenged my sobriety.  And yet, I choose not to pick up.  As a matter of fact, I have hardly given these situations the energy that I might have normally when I was drinking; that’s tremendous progress!

Although there will always be forces in life testing my resolve, I am coming to understand the true nature of life and my mantras are acceptance and gratitude.  When I accept what life is dishing out, when I accept that I have to deal with life on life’s terms, I maintain control of my emotions.

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Similarly, when I go through my day mindful of all that I have to be grateful for, life’s problems shrink and become so much more manageable.  There will always be people, places, and things that will challenge me.  I used to think that life owed me happiness.  I used to think life owed me inordinate measures of peace and tranquility.

Alas, not so any more.  I now realize–yes, it’s taken me nearly 53 years–that the times of peace and tranquility are but fleeting and should be relished.  The rest of the time life is going to be life, people will be people.  I can’t change people.  I can’t change situations.  I can’t change life.

What I can change, however, is how I respond to them.  I can change how I think about them.  I can choose to relinquish my power or I can choose to not let them tap my inner resources.  I choose acceptance and gratitude.

Today, I am grateful for 8 months of recovery!  And nothing, and NOBODY, will ever take that away from me.  It’s not available.  It’s not an option.

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The Hell With Triggers

wp-1484928101125.jpgI’m proud of myself!  Yesterday I was faced with two events that normally would have triggered me to drink.  I won’t get into what they were, suffice it to say one was a major disappointment, the other was an awful reminder of the life I once had.

I have had little chance to experience “bumps in the road” in my sobriety.  I am in a treatment facility that is safe and that holds you accountable in your recovery.  Since they test randomly, a lot of folks feel that the true test of recovery doesn’t occur until you are on your own.  I disagree.

Although I am randomly tested, I still choose not to pick up.  I don’t care where I end up finding myself, sobriety is a choice I make everyday.  And, to me, it doesn’t matter where I am:  I am still responsible for my actions and reactions.change on justruminating men's blog

With yesterday’s two triggers I would have normally just gone to the package store and stocked up.  I didn’t.  I would have normally let my mind wrap itself around the issues and unravel.  I did not.  I refused to give those two events any more attention or emotions than a “healthy” person would have.  I have come so far!

I am so proud of myself for maintaining my mental health–something I wrote about yesterday “Change The Tape.”  I let my feelings come, then I took an honest look at both events and dealt with them.  I dealt with life on life’s terms.  And you know what happened?  Nothing!  I didn’t have a meltdown.  I didn’t go to the drink.  I didn’t even let them ruin my night!  I simply let them be what they were and moved on.

Yes, I do not need to be in “real life” to know that my recovery plan is doing just fine.  I am doing just fine.  I no longer have to let my past define my present, and I no longer need to let the future dictate my feelings.  I can simply live in the now, live fully present.  I can simply deal with them, and then go fold the laundry.

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apoeticlife: onward

Thought I’d start a new section of my blog using my newfound passion for photography. I see poetry all around me, I’d like to share my views of the world using just my Samsung phone for now–horrendous camera fyi.  Then I’m using a basic photo editor to manipulate them into apoeticlife!

Onward

Shuttle ride to Brockton VA.

Sober Sights: incongruity

Thought I’d start a new section of my blog using my newfound passion for photography. I see poetry all around me, I’d like to share my views of the world using just my Samsung phone for now–horrendous camera fyi.  Then I’m using a basic photo editor to manipulate them into apoeticlife!

Incongruity

Nip outside VA treatment building.

Reblogs:  Sober Celebrations 

Sober Christmas, New Year and Celebrations – http://wp.me/p51OwE-czC