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Decision Time

How I Don’t Drink Anymore

wp-1484928101125.jpgWith just over 14 months sober, I can honestly tell you life as I used to know it is dead and buried.  Goodbye chaos.  Goodbye troubles.  Goodbye anxiety, exhaustion, worry. I know have peace of mind in my life.  I can now approach difficult situations with a level head.  I don’t get too up or too down.

I have a pause button–fuck I could have used that 36 years ago.  So how did I do it? Why was it fairly easy for me to turn my back on booze and walk into “normalcy?”  I am so glad you asked!  I thought I would list five tips that have been highly effective in maintaining my recovery.

Image result for control emotionsControl Those Emotions–When  you are able to keep your emotions in check, the likelihood of you wanting to go out and bash your head into a bottle of vodka are slim. Never getting too up, or too down, an even-keeled approach to life keeps you stable and in control.


Nip It In The Bud–Life is going to deal you hand after shitty hand.  If one of     them gets out of control–resentments, problem with another human, depression, anxiety over a topic–nip it in the bud!  Confront whatever situation is causing  you instability and deal with it, asap!  Burying emotions or situations is going to cause you problems as issues and situations build up.

Find What Works and Work It–Are 12 step meetings your thing?  Perhaps your religion? How about meditation, reading, writing, singing, dancing, walking, hiking…you get the idea.  Find what works for you and keeps you in that happy place and work it!  Do it, and I mean frequently! Don’t go overboard, of course, but do the activities that give you pleasure, keep you grounded.

Image result for control emotionsMeditate, Meditate, MeditateDid I mention MEDITATE?  I am guilty of not doing this as much as I should.  But I will tell you, the benefits of meditation are so numerous, I am surprised it is not practiced in every school in this country.

Start off with just 5 minutes a day, then build up to over 30 minutes.  You will thank me a thousand times over. My Youtube Channel has over 85 meditations you can choose from.

One Day At A Time–12 Step meetings may not be my thing, but boy are their slogans dead on!  Yes, living each day for itself will keep you from biting off more than you can chew.  It will keep you from languishing in the past, and worrying about the future.  We only have today, embrace it and stay sober.  JUST FOR TODAY.  Want more great slogans?  GO HERE!  AND HERE!

Well, there you have it.  There have been other things that have helped me stay sober, but these five principles have been my bedrock.  They have been my go to ways of living and today I can honestly use the word happy in my vocabulary.  What has kept you in recovery?

My Miscellany: Discontentment

wp-1485298089762.jpgSo I thought I would throw a few subjects together because they all seem interrelated.

First of all, as many of you know, I have entered Phase 2 of this treatment program, which means about 15 less groups and mainly work.

Well, my job at the grounds keeping facility is, in fact, no job at all.  The majority of the time we sit in the maintenance building and watch tv!

Yeah, exactly.  I am like wtf?  This is supposed to be work therapy.  I don’t know if I am going to be able to do nothing for the next two months.  Some of the guys around here seem to think I shouldn’t complain.  Well, I’m not some of those guys.

First of all, an honest days pay for an honest days work.  Second of all, I’m bored to hell!  Apparently this happens with a lot of the Therapy Jobs.  They have assigned one guy the bowling alley, and the bowling alley has been broken for three months!  Other guys spend their day trying to hide until their shifts are over.  There’s something completely wrong when supervisors are not holding us accountable for our Work Therapy end of treatment.  Just sayin’.

discontentment on justruminating men's blog

My other topic is I am getting sick and tired of some of these dudes here.  I know, it sounds awful.  But man, just to hear the voices of some of these whiners and shit-talkers is fraying my patience.  Looking at some of them is no better.

I know, I have to check my attitude and find a way to get spiritual about this.  I am just sick of people complaining about everything.  I am sick of people talking behind other people’s backs, then smiling to their faces.  Ugh, and you wonder why I have trouble making friends.

Oh, and it was priceless earlier.  There I was typing away and not 20 feet inside the tv room was one of my “friends” bashing me to a new resident (who was with us both at the other program).  I was like “I heard my name, did you need me?”  A bunch of bumbling followed.  Back stabbing asswipe!

Anyway.  I’ve got to do some gut checking here because both the residents, and this bogus job, have been bugging me out for the past two days.  I can’t seem to get my head right.  Maybe I should just go back to having my air of complete indifference?  I dunno.  Just some miscellany I’m tossing around.