My Recovery: AA And Me
I just came from another VA Group–see About Me for a quick background on me–and it has generated some new thoughts I may have towards Alcoholics Anonymous.
According to their website:
Alcoholics Anonymous is an international fellowship of men and women who have had a drinking problem. It is non-professional, self-supporting, multiracial, apolitical, and available almost everywhere. There are no age or education requirements. Membership is open to anyone who wants to do something about his or her drinking problem.
Well, to be brief, I was always turned off by different aspects of different meetings. Some seemed like English Class (Big Book Meetings), while others seemed to drone on endlessly while a Speaker told me how they had made it to sobriety (Speaker or Solutions Meeting.) They had all these different slogans that, at first glance, seemed corny:
Live and Let Live It Works If You Work It Suffering Is Optional Easy Does It First Things First Keep Coming Back
To name just a few. But today, I realized that I was looking at AA all wrong: I was JUDGING, I wasn’t READY to become sober, I lost EMPATHY for the drunk at the podium, and I just didn’t “Buy Into It.” I realize that it could be me up there, talking about how my life as an alcoholic has been, and how I am trying to keep my sobriety every precious day. I realized that perhaps I could actually benefit from being in the audience, and perhaps one day be telling my story (which, I understand, is therapeutic in and of itself).
So, I have decided to attend a meeting this weekend and give it another shot. Because isn’t it about giving me another shot when it comes right down to it? And in group I did learn that AA has the highest success rate of any aftercare program, so that grabbed my attention too!