My Ruminations: Change The Tape!

My Ruminations Robert Levasseur


As I go through this morning I found myself starting to become negative about all the groups I have to attend here at the treatment facility.

And then I got real with myself.  I had to remind myself why I am here.  I had to have a little pep talk with myself about my recovery and its aims.

As a recovering alcoholic I am learning I must always be vigilant to what my tapes are playing in my head.  I am learning to recognize negative thinking patterns.  I never really paid much attention to my thoughts.thoughtsthings on justruminating men's blog

Now, however, I am in tune with my thoughts and how much they affect my emotions and behaviors throughout the day.  Some call this “mindfulness.”

When I am mindful that my thoughts may be negative, judgmental, or just plain ineffective, I am able to simply “change the tape.”  That is to say, reorient my thinking to go down positive pathways.

Becoming in tune with how you think from moment to moment can help you to begin to change some of the negative consequences in your life.  This happens when you say to yourself “This way of thinking is not healthy for me.”  Then you simply change the tape!

thoughtscharacter on justruminating men's blogYou will be amazed at how much quieter your world becomes.  How much more at peace your life becomes!  So today, rather than bitch and complain about all the groups I have to attend, while I might not embrace them and do cartwheels, I will remember they are essential to my recovery and well being!


  • Continue on your path.

  • Working on this as I read/type… I picked up a physical journal. For the last two days, I have been writing the negative ruminations and actually working on them, versus letting them play on repeat. My logic was, if I get it out, work through it on paper, I will have the appropriate response geared up/can read it if I need it. I find my struggles are attributed directly to triggers. Triggers cause my rumination. I’ve gotten better at identifying and managing triggers, but now I want to get a better handle on the rumination, so as not to keep coming to bottom. Even if I do not engage in self harm, I’m still going down. I’m thrilled to be accepting and working versus wallowing though. Thanks Rob. Lots of love to you as you work on your recovery. <3

    • Thank you and yes, you read my mind as to my next post: the 8 main reasons why people relapse. Also, yes again! Working through those ruminations when you have the experienced trigger is key to preserving recovery, and wellness in life in general. Thank you for your wishes also!

  • I have found myself doing this quite a bit lately. Going down familiar paths of doubt or questioning my thoughts or actions, and then deciding on the best and brightest outlook. You’re right, it helps with perspective to focus on results. It’s all part of healing and happiness. I like your new section. 🙂

  • We just need to count our blessings.

  • I had to do this just this morning. Good advice.

  • Great post, Rob. This habit of adjusting our way of thinking is something we all need to learn, and I think it would make our lives a lot better. Hugs 🙂

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