Category: Rob’s World

AA And Me

wp-1484928101125.jpgI just came from another VA Group–see About Me for a quick background on me–and it has generated some new thoughts I may have towards Alcoholics Anonymous.

According to their website:

Alcoholics Anonymous is an international fellowship of men and women who have had a drinking problem. It is non-professional, self-supporting, multiracial, apolitical, and available almost everywhere. There are no age or education requirements. Membership is open to anyone who wants to do something about his or her drinking problem.

aa and me on justruminating men's blogWell, to be brief, I was always turned off by different aspects of different meetings.  Some seemed like English Class (Big Book Meetings), while others seemed to drone on endlessly while a Speaker told me how they had made it to sobriety (Speaker or Solutions Meeting.)  They had all these different slogans that, at first glance, seemed corny:

Live and Let Live     It Works If You Work It     Suffering Is Optional     Easy Does It     First Things First     Keep Coming Back

To name just a few.  But today, I realized that I was looking at AA all wrong:  I was JUDGING, I wasn’t READY to become sober, I lost EMPATHY for the drunk at the podium, and I just didn’t “Buy Into It.”  I realize that it could be me up there, talking about how my life as an alcoholic has been, and how I am trying to keep my sobriety every precious day.  I realized that perhaps I could actually benefit from being in the audience, and perhaps one day be telling my story (which, I understand, is therapeutic in and of itself).

So, I have decided to attend a meeting this weekend and give it another shot.  Because isn’t it about giving me another shot when it comes right down to it?  And in group I did learn that AA has the highest success rate of any aftercare program, so that grabbed my attention too!

Stay tuned…

Attitude of Gratitude

wp-1484928101125.jpgToday I will embrace an attitude of gratitude.  I will be thankful for the food on my plate.  I will be grateful for you who enter my life today.

I think too often we let life carry us on the breeze, and we often don’t “stop to smell the roses.”  Well, at least that happens to me at times.  Today, I will be grateful for the day, grateful for another day of sobriety.

I will be open to what others have to say.  I will be a better listener than I was yesterday.  I find that when I pause the urge to talk, my interactions are so much more rich.  I have to stop “waiting for my turn to talk.”  That’s a symptom of my disease.  There is room for more opinions than just my own today.

I will breath in the October air and relish the Fall of Earth.  It’s sights, sounds, scents.  I will live in the moment and just be today.  I will direct my attention towards gratitude, for the day, not just the moment…

My Recovery: Under Construction

wp-1484928101125.jpgToday is my 8th day at the VA Alcohol Rehab Program.  I’ve just showered after running/walking for 4 miles.  I can tell you I nearly broke down in tears out there because I was finally free (as in, out of jail last Monday free) to engage in it.

This is my first Treatment Program for treating my alcoholism, and I am about to turn 53, so this is all new to me.  As is this Blog I started last Wednesday, for MY wellness.  Side note:  many of my spiritual posts, New Age stuff, etc.  I saved from a previous New Age site from many years ago.  But one thing I can tell you for sure, I am under some heavy construction!

I didn’t realize just how much I have let go until I booked all the doctor’s appointments!  Alcoholism takes more than your mind, it takes your body and soul (soul is an entire other universe for today).

I can’t tell you how happy I was seeing the Optometrist and a Podiatrist in the same day.  I’m happy to report that my vision has only gone down slightly in two years, and my two big toenails were well attended to-bastards.  Oh, and I made a Dermatology appointment to see about reversing the affects of aging on my precious skin, hahaha.  No, seriously, I’m just now starting to wrinkle, not good!

I actually spent a lot of time walking while I was in Jail.  So, unlike many of the guys here, weight-wise I lost 25lbs.  I would like to get from the 225 moderate muscle tone, to 200 and good muscle tone now.

To sum up:  my body is well under construction, as is my mind.  My spirit has been under construction with the Bible since jail 5 months ago.  Nothing major really, you don’t have to lock up any children for gosh sakes.  Today was another day sober, many steps forward, and my on ramps are shaping up nicely!

Oh, I forgot to add, I quit smoking and am taking a med to help with that, but off all other medications; the hell with it, might as well give up all the whole stinking mess!  Right?  Stay tuned…Namaste!

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