My Sunny Side: 8 Months Sobriety
I love nature! I grew up in New Hampshire, a mostly rural state with plenty of majestic woods, ponds, lakes, and the White Mountains.
Today I celebrate 8 months of sobriety! It has been an interesting ride so far. I became sober on May 12, the day I was put in jail.
Some would say that I am not undergoing the real “test” until I resume my “normal” life. I would say that, although that may be somewhat true, I still choose everyday not to pick up.
I have had certain events occur this week that have sorely challenged my sobriety. And yet, I choose not to pick up. As a matter of fact, I have hardly given these situations the energy that I might have normally when I was drinking; that’s tremendous progress!
Although there will always be forces in life testing my resolve, I am coming to understand the true nature of life and my mantras are acceptance and gratitude. When I accept what life is dishing out, when I accept that I have to deal with life on life’s terms, I maintain control of my emotions.
Similarly, when I go through my day mindful of all that I have to be grateful for, life’s problems shrink and become so much more manageable. There will always be people, places, and things that will challenge me. I used to think that life owed me happiness. I used to think life owed me inordinate measures of peace and tranquility.
Alas, not so any more. I now realize–yes, it’s taken me nearly 53 years–that the times of peace and tranquility are but fleeting and should be relished. The rest of the time life is going to be life, people will be people. I can’t change people. I can’t change situations. I can’t change life.
What I can change, however, is how I respond to them. I can change how I think about them. I can choose to relinquish my power or I can choose to not let them tap my inner resources. I choose acceptance and gratitude.
Today, I am grateful for 8 months of recovery! And nothing, and NOBODY, will ever take that away from me. It’s not available. It’s not an option.