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Inexhaustible Life of Chaos: Angst & Anger
Inexhaustible Life of Chaos:  Angst & Anger, a poetry anthology by author Robert M. Levasseur
Poetry Anthology

Inexhaustible Life of Chaos: Angst & Anger is the first book in a five book Poetry anthology series by Robert M. Levasseur. Available NOW! Click here to purchase. Self-published, under RoBec Enterprises, LLC. The LLC is the small business Robert and his wife, Rebecca, founded in 2019 for the purpose of doing a small online antiquing business.

Angst & Anger contains poems dealing with lost love, the angst of unrequited love and the sorrow that follows. It also deals with anger, rage, sarcasm and contempt. The language the author uses is powerful and biting. He pulls no punches when it comes to someone who has harmed or insulted him in some way.

A Poetry Sampling

More importantly, many of the poems seem to have an undercurrent of fear of abandonment. The author discovered that many of the poems contained in Angst & Anger actually seem to deal with his childhood trauma. Even the author is quick to admit that he has had difficulty maintaining relationships; therefore, many of his poems deal with the pain of love gone astray and the anger he has felt when relationships have turned sour.

A great example of the powerful language found throughout Angst & Anger, are these lines from Your Dead Horizon:

“…with one touch I am
asphyxiated
emasculated
entombed
my ashes barely glancing
your frozen ground.”

The powerful feelings expressed in Angst & Anger compel the reader to examine the choice of words and the complex manner in which many of the poems seem to have been created. In Heaven and Hell, the author’s anger can be subtly experienced through lines such as these:

“…Weary worn eyes
divulge dead whys
long imagined lies
I think…”

Rhyming Isn’t Dead

Inexhaustible Life of Chaos: Angst & Anger is a bold book is comprised of both free-verse and rhyming poetry. In this era, where any line breaks in a stream of prose is called poetry, the author bodly presents many creative rhyme schemes. Rhymes inspired by the deep emotions he bleeds onto the page. Consider the descriptive rhyming lines from Illusion Delusion, a poem where the author expresses deep concern about not being able to recover from a trip to see a woman he barely knows:

“…From the thrills
the wonder the spills
the thunder
your heaven would ignite
so then I would lose
a thousand hours
dreaming every night…”

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My Photography: Entry Way

Photography by Robert M. Levasseur
Entry Way

My Sunny Side: Me and Nature

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Many of my very few happy childhood memories of our small family spending the day at the lake.  We were very poor, so we did that a lot.  I took to water like a frog!  I love swimming to this day.

Crystal Lake From My Childhood

Crystal Lake From My Childhood

When I was a little older, say 10-13, I would leave on early summer mornings and explore all day by myself.  Even in the winter I would escape my family misery to go sledding or to build snow forts.  I often wouldn’t return until the lights came on; my signal I had to get my ass in the house.

Exploring the woods provided me an outlet for my angst and pain.  I felt connected to everything.  I always found the woods to be so serene, so worthy of all kinds of adventures.

Old Man Of The Mountain

Old Man Of The Mountain

I loved those times!  It was the first time in my life that I was challenged on arduous hikes, and then rewarded with the most majestic views from atop mountains in the White Mountains.

My college, Plymouth State College in Plymouth New Hampshire, was just minutes from Tenney Mountain. 

I learned how to ski there and learned to love it!  I never progressed past the beginner slopes, but my love for nature was even more solidified.

Plymouth State College

When my children were old enough, and I mean I am talking Nick was 5 and Matt 3, I would take them into the woods for long hikes and snacks.

Plymouth State College

As a matter of fact, for the majority of the time I had them–until my ex and her parents brainwashed them into hating me, and so I haven’t seen them in 10 years–we spent almost all of our visitation time in nature.

I am proud of the fact that I instilled in my boys a true passion, appreciation, and respect for nature.  I taught them to fish, hike, build fires, hunt frogs. 

When they were only 7 and 5 I took them on a very challenging hike in the White Mountains; they did incredibly well.  I hope that they still have that profound love of nature that I do.

White Mountain Range N.H.

Even in my worst days of alcoholism, I always took walks in the woods.  I did a lot of fishing.  For me, spending time in nature, is like spending time with my inner self.

White Mountain Range N.H.

Every time I explore the woods, go swimming, go fishing, I feel like I am truly home.  I can’t get enough of the sights, the smells, the sounds.

We are going on a skiing trip on January 28th, I can’t wait!  Next time you are feeling blue, get out into nature!  I don’t mean a park.  I mean, if you have the access, deep into the woods!  Leave your phone at home.  Go find yourself.  You’ll be waiting there, I guarantee it.

(just a side note:  I do not condone hunting unless it is a controlled hunt for thinning a herd, or for true survival.  I shot a squirrel with my BB Gun at age 12 and felt so bad about it, I gave it a formal funeral and never killed another creature again.  Well, I might have skinned a few frogs…anyway.)

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Principles of Purpose:  Plan Ahead

Tentatively titled Principles of Purpose: A Guide To Living Wisely, is an ongoing draft of a concept I might one day publish a book on. It’s essentially 30 Principles that I think are essential to living life wisely. Some are principles that I wished I had learned much earlier in life. Many are principles that I only learned in recovery in 2016-2017. Still other principles were ones I had applied off and on during my 56 years.

PrefaceIntroductionTrusting Your GutUse Good Judgement
ListenRegulate EmotionsSet BoundariesBe Mindful
Practice ModerationManage ExpectationsResolve ConflictPlan Ahead
Have Patience

“Patience is not simply the ability to wait – it’s how we behave while we’re waiting.”

Joyce Meyer
The Elements of Patience
The Elements of patience.

Patience is essential to daily life—and might be key to a happy one. Having patience means being able to wait calmly in the face of frustration or adversity, so anywhere there is frustration or adversity—i.e., nearly everywhere—we have the opportunity to practice it.

At home with our kids, at work with our colleagues, at the grocery store with half our city’s population, patience can make the difference between annoyance and equanimity, between worry and tranquility.

To have patience is to have the ability to endure difficult circumstances. It is the presence of positive behaviors in the face of adversity. There are several elements to being able to practice patience.

Perseverance in the face of delayForbearance when under strain
Tolerance of provocation without angerLevel of endurance of frustration

In effect patience is not taking action in situations which are distressing. It’s an absence of action during times when situations become challenging. To have patience is to exhibit self-restraint and resiliency when the circumstances may challenge one’s sense of well-being. By not responding in an adverse way to a negative stimulus, you are exhibiting a suppression of emotion that would otherwise result in negative consequences.

Patience Is A Virtue

Having patience is virtuous in many modern religions.

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  • Judaism–Patience in God, it is said, will aid believers in finding the strength to be delivered from the evils that are inherent in the physical life.
  • Christianity–patience is one of the most valuable virtues of life.
  • Islam–Allah is with those who are patient, more specifically during calamity and suffering.
  • Buddhism–patience is one of the “perfections” (paramitas) that a bodhisattva trains in and practices to realize perfect enlightenment (bodhi).
  • Hinduism–Patience, in Hindu philosophy, is the cheerful endurance of trying conditions and the consequence of one’s action and deeds (karma).
The Science Of Patience

Religions and philosophers have long praised the virtue of patience; now researchers are starting to do so as well. Recent studies have found that, sure enough, good things really do come to those who wait. Some of these science-backed benefits are detailed below, along with three ways to cultivate more patience in your life.

Reframe the situation. Feeling impatient is not just an automatic emotional response; it involves conscious thoughts and beliefs, too. If a colleague is late to a meeting, you can fume about their lack of respect, or see those extra 15 minutes as an opportunity to get some reading done. Patience is linked to self-control, and consciously trying to regulate our emotions can help us train our self-control muscles.

Practice mindfulness. In one study, kids who did a six-month mindfulness program in school became less impulsive and more willing to wait for a reward. The GGSC’s Christine Carter also recommends mindfulness practice for parents: Taking a deep breath and noticing your feelings of anger or overwhelm (for example, when your kids start yet another argument right before bedtime) can help you respond with more patience.

Practice gratitude. In another study, adults who were feeling grateful were also better at patiently delaying gratification. When given the choice between getting an immediate cash reward or waiting a year for a larger ($100) windfall, less grateful people caved in once the immediate payment offer climbed to $18. Grateful people, however, could hold out until the amount reached $30. If we’re thankful for what we have today, we’re not desperate for more stuff or better circumstances immediately.

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